I recently changed my profile picture for this blog (you can see it if you scroll to the bottom of my blog). I did this for a couple of reasons. First, I wanted to change it up a little (ladies, you know how we are). Second, as I was looking at pictures of myself, I realized there are 2 people in this picture. When this picture was taken (Thanksgiving weekend 2013) I was pregnant with Faith.
I look at myself in the picture and how happy I was. I miss Faith so much.
This picture is a reminder to me of how happy Faith made me. It is also a reminder to me that although she is no longer with me, I need to be happy for her that she is in Heaven. That is SO VERY difficult. I know Faith wants me to be happy, so that is what I strive to do daily out of honor and love for her.
I will continue to look at this picture and remember how happy she made me. I miss feeling her move, feeling her kick, singing to her, reading to her, talking to her when I would eat, etc…the list goes on and on. In my heart, I know that I will never be the same happy that I was when I was pregnant with Faith. Nothing and no one can ever replace her.
But I can be happy that I had her with me as long as I did. I can also be glad that she is happy playing in Heaven. She is and will always be my baby girl. I am and will always be her mother. Nothing can ever change that. This picture will forever remind me of my Faith Melody.