Capture Your Grief – Day 30 – Reflection

Reflection was yesterday’s Capture Your Grief topic.  Today, I will again go question by question on this topic, since there are only a few questions and I think it’s the easiest route…
Q: What is your relationship with grief like right now?
A: My relationship with grief now is one of co-existence.  I don’t know how to explain it any differently than that.  I live with grief every day.  I do not WALLOW in grief, but it is a part of me now.
Q: Is it still the same?
A: No, it is not the same.  I believe my grief changes on a daily basis.
Q: Has anything changed? 
A: Yes.  My grief is constantly changing.  Most of the time I try to focus on the wonderful time I was able to spend with Faith and my love for her.  
Q: What have you learned about yourself and your grief? 
A: I have learned so much about myself and my grief since Faith died.  I have learned that you can learn to live with grief in your everyday life without it overcoming you.  You control it (most of the time).  A lot of the time I can choose to have a good cry session to get out some needed grief.
Q: Did you love anything about this project? 
A: I love the fact that this project has given me the time out to think about Faith and to think about my relationship with her.  I also love that this project has given me something to give myself as a goal and I have actually done it!
Q: What did you find difficult?
A: Some days I found it difficult to take the time out to do my blog post for this project.  However, the couple times that I didn’t do the post I caught it up on the next day, which is great for me!  I found it difficult to sit down and really focus on Faith.  Not that I don’t think of her VERY frequently, but since I am so busy I don’t often make the time to just focus some much needed time on my relationship with her and my grief for her.

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