Simple Joy Window Block

Simple Joy – Window Block

Seek Simple Joys In this life, we need to take time out to see and truly relish in the simple joys.  I will post many simple joys as I encounter them in my life.  Please share the things that bring you simple joy!  The first simple joy I am sharing with you is what I lovingly refer to as our window block. The Window Block During a recent toy clean-up time before Joy goes to bed, I Read More

The Very Beginning

The Very Beginning, A Very Good Place to Start

The Very Beginning, A Very Good Place to Start Julie Andrews says it best in The Sound of Music when she says “Let’s start at the very beginning, a very good place to start…”.  So, on that note, I am starting at the very beginning of our life together. My husband, Owen, and I were both led to attend the same church and met in August of 2003 in Tampa, FL. To make this long story short, Read More

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A Faith-Shaped Hole in My Heart

Faith-Shaped Hole I will always have a Faith-Shaped hole in my heart.  For those of you who have lost a child(ren), you know what I mean.  For those of you who haven’t, let me explain. Earlier this evening, my husband, our daughter Joy, and I were hanging out in the bedroom watching a Christmas movie.  We talked about Faith and how she would be laying right next to Joy in the bed with us if she were Read More

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Missing Faith

As we draw near to Joy’s first birthday, I have been thinking about and missing Faith.  I cannot help but miss her and think of what she may be like today.  She would be 2 years and 3 months old now.  I know she is a wonderful big sister and she would be a great one here if she were here.   We moved in June to IL to be close to my family with a lot of Read More

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Capture Your Grief – Day 4 – Dark + Light

Today’s Capture Your Grief topic is Dark + Light.  This topic makes perfect sense to me.  I have gone through so many emotions and feelings in the time since Faith died.  Of course, during the immediate time after she passed, my life seemed only Dark.  I did not want to continue living.  Looking back, I suppose this is a natural initial response.  After some time, I began to see the Light that has come from Faith’s brief Read More

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Capture Your Grief 2015 – Day 1 – Sunrise

 As I begin my Capture Your Grief journey for this year, I am reflecting on life.  But not just any life, the life of our daughter, Faith.  While her life was brief, it has had one of the most profound impacts on my life. So many people have had a great impact on me and have contributed to the person I am today.  Faith is one of those people, perhaps one of the most important… I did Read More

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Missing Faith

We are still on our trip. I don’t know too much to say today except that I miss Faith very much.  I miss her more at certain times than at others. I guess that’s “normal”. Every time I see a baby (or young girl), when I pass a shop with baby items, when I see others playing with their child/children…I miss Faith.  I do have a relationship with her, although it’s not the “traditional” mother-daughter relationship. I Read More

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Capture Your Grief – Day 14 – Dark/Light

Dark/Light is today’s Capture Your Grief prompt; focusing on the dark and light of grief.  So, I will discuss a little bit of both the dark and light sides of my grief.   In the first days after we lost Faith, I experienced some of the darkest days I have ever known.  I honestly didn’t care about being alive.  No, let me correct myself, I did not want to live.  I would have given anything to have Faith live. Read More

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Capture Your Grief – Day 4 – Now

Today’s Capture Your Grief prompt is Now.  When I think about how to describe myself now, I don’t really know where to start… I think I am much more of a realist than I used to be, but I don’t think that is a bad thing.  I look at life through a totally different lense, that is for sure. I have a new love and respect for my husband than I ever had before.  It is very strange for Read More

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Another Day on My Journey

Today overall has been a good day.  I have opened some moving boxes in my office (Faith’s room) and have started putting things away.  Thank goodness it seems that my Cricut and sewing machine are found and functional. I have been thinking of how I want to decorate my office and I think I may put up Faith and girly stuff to remind me of her.  I came across some beautiful bright sparkly butterflies last night and Read More